The Only Way Is Essex star, Harry Derbidge, has opened up for the first time about an eating disorder that plagued his life for ten years.
Speaking to Ruth Langsford and Eamonn Holmes on This Morning, the reality star revealed he had always been a fussy eater, but started his struggle with food at the young age of eight.
"It started for me as being fussy and turned into a bit of OCD with my food, so my poor mum used to bring me out my food and everything would have to be separate," he explained.
Harry opened up for the first time about his eating disorder (WENN)
"It was an OCD thing, it couldn't be touching, and I'm still such a fussy eater today and everything I eat is completely plain. But at the time I didn't see it as a problem.
"I used to look at food and if I didn't like the look of it or smell of it or touch of it, I'd always make sure that I'd hide it behind my tongue and forever going to the toilet and spill it all out.
"That would happen two or three times during a meal."
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The 20-year-old also revealed the toll it took on his body, adding, "I always remember being very very tired, being very lazy because I had no energy... and I also remember how cold I used to get in the winter because I had no meat on me.
"I was just skin and bone, so I used to really shiver and shake all the time."
But after a trip to the doctors revealed his weight was dangerously low, Harry realised he needed to change his relationship with food.
"They said to me 'if you continue to keep losing weight, we are going to have to send you into a clinic' ...and for me that was the scariest point ever."
But Harry was able to work through the disorder, admitting that he now weighs ten stone, with the goal of putting on one more stone.
Harry sports a daring thong with boyfriend, Bobby Norris (Twitter/Steve Pena)
And the weight-gain has been extremely positive for the star, resulting in him having more energy, as well as giving him the confidence to wear that thong.
"Two years ago, I would never have dreamt of doing that!" he laughed.
"For me to do that was such a big thing and hearing the response from those pictures - everyone loved them, it went global!"
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