Alesha Dixon is rarely seen without a bright smile on her face so it'll come as a surprise to most to learn that the Britain's Got Talent judge felt so low in the midst of her split from husband MC Harvey in 2006 that at one point, she didn't care about losing her life.
The 35-year-old got married to the So Solid Crew rapper after five years together but it all came crashing down in 2006 when he was revealed to be having an affair with Pop Idol contestant Javine Hylton. As if that wasn't more than enough for Alesha to deal with, the singer's music career had hit a brick wall when her record label Polydor released her from their contract.
Opening up about the rocky time of her life in a chat with Piers Morgan for his Life Stories series, Alesha explained: "I feel embarrassed to talk about it but I do remember having that split second thought. I just remember having a feeling when I was driving, I just felt so low in myself that I just thought I wouldn't care if the car crashed. Looking back now I don't even recognise that person anymore. That time of my life just seems so long ago.
"Because the two happened at the same time, you can't help feel that the universe is having a clear out. It felt like a rebirth at that time. There I was one day married, signed a solo record deal, everything was wonderful and then I was there in my house with nothing. It took me a long time to work my way out of that time. I was lost for quite a long time."
Alesha Dixon was married to MC Harvey for a year from 2005 to 2006 (Daniel Deme/WENN)
Fortunately for Alesha, life has worked out with the beauty now in a relationship with dancer Azuka Ononye with whom she shares daughter Azura Sienna, becoming a mother for the first time. While life has picked up since her divorce from Harvey, it hasn't been a smooth journey to become the face of Simon Cowell's BGT, with the former Mystique singer receiving backlash when she replaced veteran Strictly Come Dancing judge Arlene Phillips in 2009.
Speaking about the shocking public reaction, Alesha says: "It took on a life of its own and we were just the little pawns that were being used. Arlene and I have never crossed paths but if she walked in here right now I would embrace her. Truthfully I'm not sorry and its not because I don't have any compassion because I do have compassion for her for anyone who's going through anything in their life that isn't pleasant, but I'm not sorry because I don't feel responsible for her life and career and nobody's responsible for mine."
Alesha Dixon's Life Stories interview will air tonight on ITV1 at 9pm.
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